上个周末，去了一个非常短的岛屿假期。
假期，似乎不能够形容那个感觉。
比较像是。。。A trip to refresh myself....
到了目的地，我第一件事情，就是把手表拆下，放进一个我不会看到的角落。
整个旅程，时间，仿佛停下来了。
没有时间的约束，感觉是非常愉快的。
这，也是个 last minute trip。
我们没有计划任何行程，一切都是到了那里，随便走走看看。
最主要的目的，就是吃吃喝喝。
虽然没有大吃大喝，但是我真的很享受这次的 short escape。
希望这次 refresh 了过后，接下来的日子，没那么辛苦吧。
这次旅行，没有拍到很多照片，漂亮的更是少之又少。
我最喜欢的，是在 Datai Bay 拍的。
清澈的海水，人烟稀少，感觉比较自在。
期待下一趟的旅行。
这次，想来一个自己的旅行。
但是胆小的我，该从哪里开始呢？
笔于
还想继续旅行的Monday
This time, at this hour... I should be already lying on my bed and sleep like a pig since 2 hours ago.
But... I am not sitting here, typing all this potential negative energy wordings, and not doing the quarterly report that I am suppose to do.
Have been so stressed up lately. Since we were back from the Chinese New Year holidays, I finally have the "chance" to sit down with my boss, and have a personal talk, like how we used to have before all the stress getting higher.
I can't bear with any stress anymore, and my colleague was right. Among the three of us, I've dedicated the most to my works, but yet, I have to listen to all the scolding and shouting like others. Yes, I may have delayed my works, but I hope she could at least understand where all the delay comes from.
I have only a pair of hand, and a brain. I am trying to turn myself like a sponge, trying to absorb as much as I could. Everyday, I've been trying hard to do my best. But, now that everyone has their own thing to do, why am I still so busy and get things delayed, I really have no idea. No?
OK. Consumer is my part, but then such in a sudden why throw the trade ball to me? There is someone who is handling that part, why would you throw it to me just because you want it to be fast? OK, fine. I can follow up with some, but then, I will neglect my own tasks, as trade is the key collaboration now.
Then, leading and guiding the new. Again, I have do my best to transfer whatever knowledge I have, and to spare as much time as I could. How much time and how many pair of hands that I could ask for to get all the things done.
Not that I want to put the blame on anyone else, shouldn't we take care of our own area and do the best out of it?
I don't wish to put my hand into it, but sometimes when I see how the conversation going on between them and the agents, I am afraid.
Yes, it's a fact that we all know the destination was famous for its gambling businesses. But, for our identity, we are not suppose to mention about that. Even though others are talking about it, we should pull them back and talk on the things that we would want to promote. Now, it is like misleading the direction to other topics.
So, should I just let it be? Ignore it? Continue doing my own thing will do?
But I can't. I've tried to convince myself, let it be, I will not lose anything.
But I dislike it when people who are selling do not appreciate the destination as a good holiday destination.
And.... why keep saying we do not have much activity for the group?
We have so many international brand and integrated hotels, which provide huge ballroom or convention hall.... why.... why would she said the destination does not offer anything?
How would the experienced look at us when they hear all this from us?
Shocked for our shortage of knowledge? Are we crazy or what?
The destination is also known for its facility offers for the incentive and corporate.
Or else, why so many exhibitions like to be organized there?
Yes, because she worked for so long she already has a fixed mind. I have too, but I am trying to absorb new things. Don't know, ask. Or people will not know nor guess what I am thinking. Isn't it?
Anyhow, I still do not know, care or just don't care. So complicated.
I hope things will get better and better, even though we know this is a global situation.
I said Positive Energy on my post, but I am more like to express my unsatisfactory and unhappiness at work here, now.
I miss the gym now. I sweat so much yesterday I felt so great! Literally G.R.E.A.T!
Positive Energy Auro 正能量.
以上两张是我在 2010 年 泰国曼谷旅游时拍的
说真的
很怀念自己的笑容
好像无忧无虑的
还有那比较瘦的脸
这三张
是最近的照片
其实发型差不多
只不过一个短刘海
一个长刘海
是那个神情
我尝试露齿的笑
可是
就是找不回
那个感觉
那个无忧无虑的感觉
要怎样
才可以找回
我向往的那个
开心的
笑容
最近，公司上上下下，大家都似乎深锁眉头。
就因为一个人，一个原因。
也不晓得为什么，最近也好像有很多不如意的事情发生。
接二连三，相信她也很难受吧。
但是，始终不能够这样把气出在大家身上。
我们也许无法了解你的压力，但是很多时候，事情是可以商量，大家可以好好的谈，不至于到需要大声呼喊，嘶叫，甚至是怒骂。
心理建设再强大，还是会有到瓶颈的时候。
我想，我快要达到“巅峰”了。
早上，很不愿意起床。很不愿意上班，总是提不起劲。
那股动力，去哪儿了？
动力你去哪儿了？ （是不是可以制作一个节目，让那些快要泄气的上班族，重拾工作的信心，然后再创高峰？不过，这么无聊的节目，应该会很低收视率。大家都放工了，才不想再看任何和工作有关的节目！）
最近，开始运动。有好几个原因ssssss
1. 我真的肥了不少
2. 我的脸实在是太圆了
3. 我的肚子就快像是要八个月身孕
4. 压力实在是太大了
5. 我要 Thirty Flirty *wink wink*
6. 多运动 少受伤 （年纪日增，少运动，实在是太容易受伤了）
7. 想要更健康的自己
8. 想要当个漂亮的 Bitch! Yes I mean it!
And the list goes on with a lot of nonsense reasons....
呵呵呵呵 呵呵呵呵
我希望，重新写部落格，重新运动，可以让我重拾信心（？？？？），可以让我解压。
除了写这么多负面情绪的日常琐碎事，我希望，希望啦，接下来可以和你们分享一些比较开心，特别的故事。
（下次是什么时候。。。我也不懂 哈哈）
今天晚餐，和同事在公司附近的麻麻可 (mamak) 解决，抒发了很多情绪。
7点多，讲到快11点。真的是三个女人一个（？）我不会写那个字，将就点啦。
我发觉，我惯性在压力的时候，到家了不下车，继续在车上有的没的在听歌，按手机，发呆，自己一个人静够了，才甘愿真的回家。
而且，有时候会特地兜远路回家。
就像今天（to be exact 是昨天），特地兜过Jalan Alor，想感受那里的热闹气氛，想让那些热闹的气氛感染一下自己。
塞车的当儿，看看窗外的人群来来往往，脑袋暂时一片空白。
醒来时，有那么一刻想，自己那么辛苦为什么？
简简单单过日子，有什么不好吗？
补充：
话说回来，你们有么有很哥呀输 （kiasu）的到商场死命补货？
我在昨天补货了，也不算什么，就看到有便宜的，就买了。就好像床单，70% 折扣，千多块变三百多，还不买！！
车的汽油，我也在今晚（to be exact 是昨晚 @ 31st March 2015)，到油站添油了。
这个不是因为哥呀输，而是我的车，就只剩下两条线而已。嘻嘻
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The first day of GST Implementation Day a.k.a April's Fool
